THE HIDDEN LIFE OF A MOTHER OF THE CROSS
HOLDS THE POWER OF GOD
A Trumpet Call From God Forming His Victim Souls for These Decisive Times.
⁓⁓ 2013 ⁓⁓
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Hidden life is not a state of inactivity but of great activity
I feel my Lord in my soul holding His chalice. His tears of sorrow for our brokenness fall one-by-one into the chalice. He thirsts for my companionship. His gaze invites me to remain with Him and just to be with Him. I remain next to Him, with Him, as He cries God's tears of sorrow for each of us. I am not called to do, but just to be with Him, to accompany Him in His sorrows. Through the grace of God, my soul is living in the hidden life. The world does not understand the hidden life. It is God who does, Who suffers, Who redeems, but I enter and live within the words of the Mass, "through Him, with Him and in Him." This hidden life is not a state of inactivity but of great activity. It's a participation in the activity of God Himself. I am accompanying my Lord, Who suffers for all. This is peace, and the fruit of this peace is JOY!
Our restoration as men and women is the ability to cry again
The Blood of Christ pours forth from His Body, His complete sacrifice. The tears come from His Heart. The Lord is inviting me to be His living chalice that collects His tears, His tears of love and sorrow that flow from His most sensitive Heart for each of us. I am called to honor and collect my Lord's tears in the chalice of my heart. This is my most hidden and interior life: the union of sorrows with my God.
Satan has taken away our identities as true men and women created in the image and likeness of God. Jesus Christ is fully man and fully God. He cries, He feels, He loves intimately, He touches and allows himself to be touched, He's passionate, He is courageous in His zeal to do the Father's will, He speaks the truth always, He is consuming tenderness for He is mercy, He is Love. Jesus Christ is not macho. We need the Holy Spirit to restore our true identities as holy men and women of the Kingdom of God. To collect the tears of the God-man and cry with Him is the purest union of hearts…
Part of our restoration as men and women is the ability to cry again. A great gift of the Holy Spirit is the gift of tears. This gift is experienced by many in places of apparitions and in the Baptism of the Holy Spirit. Mary is the Queen of Sorrows, the Mother of Tears, precisely because she is of ONE Heart with the Sacred Heart of Jesus. We can only enter the fusion of hearts through the union of sorrows with our Lord.
Be My companion of love
I desire to draw you into the depth of My Sacred Heart to immerse you in Love. Enter into the deep, My little one. Enter into the ocean of My mercy. Come My little one and be My companion of love. Be with your God and Savior as I enter My agony again. The time has come when the Father will turn His gaze from the world. My Mother and I will cry for you (humanity). Who will remain faithful during the great and terrible persecution? Remain with Me and collect My tears to present them to the Father, for you have found favor with Him.
Identity as a MOC
I desire for you to be My companion in this time of great suffering, to remain with Me as My spouse of My most precious Blood, to collect My tears shed for all of humanity. You have been chosen to be ONE with Me, My consolation, during these end times. This is your identity as a Mother of the Cross.
(I asked Jesus how to live as His companion of love. It is easy when I am in prayer, and He allows me to feel His presence and see His gaze, but during the day there are so many distractions...)
Be attentive to each person you encounter in your life. I live in them. I suffer for them and with them. This is My Body (Mt 35:31-41). My little one, have the docility of heart to receive the brokenness of all people into your heart as ONE with Me. This is participation in the love of the Trinity: to receive the wounds of your brothers and sisters and to give the sacrifice of your life, as ONE with Me, for their salvation and sanctification. This is Love.
Remain with Me collecting My tears for humanity
The time is short. My little one, I am living My agony of love for My Bride, the Church. I am alone; few remain with Me awake, attentive, concerned for the Heart of their God who cries for them. Will you too fall asleep as I continue to ask you to remain with Me collecting My tears for humanity?
My Church will also collapse during the time of the great tribulation
I felt the Lord ask me to open my Bible randomly because He wanted to speak. I opened to the Gospel of Mark to the multiplication of loaves. As I began to read, I felt the Spirit stop me in this one line, 6:34:
"As he went ashore, he saw a great throng, and he had compassion on them because they were like sheep without a shepherd; and he began to teach them many things."
My Heart was moved with compassion, for they were as sheep without a shepherd. My little one, it has begun. The great and terrible persecution is upon you. Jerusalem will fall. My Church will also collapse during the time of the great tribulation, and many will think she is dead, but she will rise in glory through the power of My Cross. My martyrs of love will purify her as ONE with My precious Blood. My compassion will extend to the ends of the world through My victims of love... Believe in all I say to you.
Remain with Me mourning the death of My Bride, the Church
My little one, we have become ONE. I live in you and you in Me. You feel My sorrows and participate in My tears. Remain with Me mourning the death of My Bride, the Church. Collect My tears as one with Mary and present them in the chalice of your heart to our Father. My little one, know that the Father hears you and blesses your every prayer, for you have found favor with Him. This is a time of mourning.
(I asked the Lord what he wants me to do because there are still such few victim souls and no army of holy priests....)
Trust always in the triumph of My Cross. My little one, I am alone, as if again, in Gethsemane. I desire, as My spouse, your constant companionship in My sorrows.
(I told the Lord that He has Mary and all the angels and saints with Him...)
Yes, but your pure prayer of suffering as ONE with Me is needed now for My Church. This prayer is of greater fecundity than of any works ...(I didn't write this sentence exactly as I heard it) Remain with Me to collect My tears of sorrow during this time of mourning. Be at peace; I am your God.
Gethsemane is the preparation to enter Calvary
This is the time of mourning with Me. It is the time to keep watch and pray with Me to Abba, our Father, for the justice of God is upon you. Gethsemane is the preparation to enter Calvary. I am uniting My holy remnant with Me to watch and pray so that you can reach the summit of Golgotha with Me. This is My holy remnant that will save My Bride because you have become ONE with My sacrifice of love. This time of watchfulness is crucial for the future, for only those who remain awake with Me will endure till the end. Love! Love! Love! It is My victims of love that God the Father is using to carry My Bride into the era of peace. Watch and learn from Me, Love Incarnate. Watch Me. Gaze into the Eyes of Love, and I will be your strength to persevere in love. Be at peace and know that I am with you.
Watch and pray
Not everyone in our community will endure to Calvary with our Lord. Not everyone will persevere during the "great and terrible persecution." We are now in Gethsemane with our Lord being prepared by our Lord for the Church's Calvary. We must persevere in watchfulness and prayer, for if we fall asleep, we too, like Peter, James, and John, will run away when faced with the persecutors.
Watch what? Watch Jesus! Watch Him suffer; watch Him cry; watch Him pray and unite ourselves to suffer with Him, cry with Him, pray with Him, gazing at Abba through Him. Only then will we have the strength to rise and ascend Calvary with Him and not run away. If Peter, James, and John had remained with Him, their eyes fixed on the "suffering servant," praying to the Father with the Son; they would have been ready to face the persecutors as one with Jesus.
Hour of our persecution has come
My little one, I need you to get up and come with Me, for the hour of our persecution has come. We are one; I am with you and the gaze of the Father is always upon you. Be at peace. You will have to suffer the betrayal of many close to you.... it is in the suffering of betrayal that you will live the kiss of union. The world cannot perceive the union between a soul and its God... Those that do perceive it, but haven't attained it, can be swept away in the sin of jealousy.
My Cross is the sword of righteousness
My little one, the time has come. The principalities of darkness will consume the face of the earth. Jerusalem will weep, for she failed to recognize the time of her visitation. All will suffer; many will be lost. It is time for you to get up and walk with Me, for I have prepared you to enter this battle. You will hold tight the sword I have placed in your hands. This is the sword that Satan fears, My sword of righteousness.
(I asked the Lord how I am going to fight in this battle... I do not understand what these words mean...)
In the same way, I conquered this battle through the power of the Cross. My Cross is the sword of righteousness, and everyone that enters in it (conquers) with the power of God.
St Michael warns me
As I entered prayer before the Blessed Sacrament, I saw St Michael the Archangel interiorly. He carried before him, with two hands, a large sword that shone of a bright gold heavenly light. He said that as God's warrior of love and light, he has been sent to help me raise up God's army of holy priests. He came with a warning for me: We have entered the great and terrible persecution; if I am not SILENT, I stand the chance of losing the sword that has been given to me. He said that St Joan of Arc intercedes for me...
Prisoner of Love
There are some who are imprisoned in jails for Love and with Love. These are My red martyrs of love. They love to the extreme of enduring great physical pains as ONE with Me. Yet, few souls realize that I continue to be imprisoned in the tabernacles of the world. I continue to suffer in the Eucharist the martyrdom of My Heart. My Heart is consumed with the fire of love, which is the Holy Spirit. My Heart bursts in pain and agony, not being able to release this fire of the Holy Spirit into docile hearts, open and receptive. This is My agony of love lived as a prisoner of love in the tabernacles of the world.
prisoners of love
I'm here in the chapel of St. Justin Martyr alone with my Lord before the tabernacle. I cry tears of love for my Beloved. He is here locked up in the tabernacle, almost always alone, with hardly anyone that comes to be with Him. There is no Eucharistic Adoration here. My Lord makes Himself dependent on a person to come with the key to open the doors of the tabernacle. My Lord is a prisoner of love. What sorrow, what tears I cry! I have become a prisoner of love with my Lord in the tabernacle of my heart. I pray to our Lady that I can live this union of solitude with greater love, for love is all that matters. I pray that I can love with greater passion in this interior solitude to help set many captives free. My Lord and my God, thank you for teaching me how to love through the witness of how You love in and through the Eucharist. Grant me the grace to smile through the tears and sorrows hidden within the tabernacle of my heart, so that like Mary, I can give away the roses of graces and keep the thorns as my greatest treasure. Amen
Believe in the hidden force as the POWER OF GOD
Believe, My family (LC), in the hidden force I have revealed to you. My hidden force is My Eucharistic life. Live, who you are called to be, as My living hosts in the world. This is the power of God, the fire of the Holy Spirit, that will set the world ablaze. Believe in the hidden force as the POWER OF GOD. The hidden force is the fire of My blazing Love. Live the martyrdom of solitude I am now revealing to you as ONE with Me. This most intimate union of suffering with Love and for Love will bring forth new life. Live as My hidden martyrs of love for these decisive times. Believe in the POWER OF GOD contained in THE LIVING HOST.
God in His infinite mercy will bless the multitudes through His holy remnant of victim souls
I want you to live with all your love, with all your strength, with all your might as My living force. Suffer with Me in the hiddenness of your heart. Cry with Me for your brothers and sisters, sons and daughters. Do not grow weary in living with Me the sorrows for a humanity that has lost their way. God in His infinite mercy will bless the multitudes through His holy remnant of victim souls. Do not fear to proclaim the power in suffering with the Victim of Love. Live who you are as My prophet of light. Be still and know that I am with you. Enter and find refuge in Me.
Reflection on "suffer with"
To suffer with Jesus flows from a profound experience of God's love for each of us personally. We come to experience personally the words of St Paul, "I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me; and the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. (Gal 2:20)" Suffering with is rooted in a passionate love relationship with Christ. That is why Jesus teaches us that the purest love on earth must be united to suffering. God is love, and Jesus lives His pure love on earth immersed in suffering. Because He loves us, He lives suffering in expiation for our sins. The love of God the Father is pure love, so He gives us His only begotten Son to be sacrificed as the pure Victim so that we may be restored and have new life in Him. Therefore, the work of the Holy Spirit is to ignite our hearts with the desire to suffer with Jesus for the sole purpose of bringing us to enter into Love. Jesus Christ teaches us that suffering united to His Cross is new life through participation in the work of redemption. Finally, as we enter and live participating in the work of redemption, we enter the life in the Trinity, and this is happiness and the fulfillment of our deepest desires.
Last night as I prayed the rosary with my family, I felt the presence of Jesus interiorly. He was in His glorified Body and He was wearing a white robe. I entered the gaze of His eyes. I was walking a few steps behind Him, and I was wearing a white gown and veil…
This morning after Mass, while we prayed the rosary, Jesus came to me again in the same manner as last night. He said to me, "follow Me." I responded to my Lord, "Grant me your grace, for without you, I can do nothing..." I have felt so fatigued and sick for the past few weeks. It seems I can't accomplish anything. Writing an email seems to be an impossible task. I feel complete weakness physically and mentally.
I continued to walk towards my Beloved with my eyes fixed on His gaze. He is so beautiful! Through the power of His gaze, my heart was flooded with love and the understanding that as my Lord's spouse of His most precious Blood, He desires for me to collect His tears of sorrow for our sons and daughters and to accompany Him in His sufferings.
He then pointed, and I looked and saw a large white cross standing as if on the ground. My eyes continued fixed on His gaze. I then saw myself nailed on the white cross with my white gown and veil flapping as if a wind was blowing. Jesus was standing at the foot of the cross gazing at me as His sacrifice to the Father. He lifted His hands up towards Heaven, presenting me to the Father as His living sacrifice. I felt and saw three powerful and distinct Lights coming from heaven to me: the Lights of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. Then, these Lights as one, yet distinct, radiated out from me. Jesus then said, "Believe in the power of the martyrdom of the heart." I understood the white martyrdom. Then Jesus explained to me that this pure martyrdom is being used by the Father as grace for the purity of His sons (priests).
The Lord explains to me the vision I had on 7/9/13:
The white gown represents your life as My pure victim of love. This white pure mantle soaked in My precious Blood, through your union in suffering all with Me, will cover the world by the Holy Spirit. It will have the power from on High to extinguish the darkness from Satan that now has penetrated the entire world. Your mission is to help raise up God's pure victims of love to defeat the darkness of Satan. My daughter, bring Me victim souls for the decisive battle is at hand.
Mary's White Army
Mt 11:25-27...you have hidden these things from the wise and the learned you have revealed them to the childlike."
The childlike innocent will inherit the Kingdom of God. My little one, the decisive battle for the salvation of the world is about to be waged. The greatest forces of evil are almost all in place. Many lives will be lost. This is the battle I have been preparing you for, My little one. It will be won by My pure victims of love. These have the innocence of a child in their love for Me. These trust in the power of My sacrifice of love. These unite to My sacrifice as one with Me to obtain grace for the world. These are Mary's white army. This army will wage war against the principalities of death and win. Allow Me to detach you from all things so that you can become one with God.
My victim intercessors need to be purified in the fire of many sufferings.
Amos 3:7 "Indeed, the Lord God does nothing without revealing his plan to his servants, the prophets."
God the Father: I, the God of heaven and earth, am with you. I have heard your cries. It is I, My little one, who has chosen you to raise up My army of victim souls. This is My army which possesses My power. Believe in the power of your sorrows immersed in the Sacred Heart of My Son. Suffer all with perfect faith in the power of Christ's crucified love. Suffer with patient endurance. The Kingdom of God is at hand... My victim intercessors need to be purified in the fire of many sufferings.
Message from our Blessed Mother:
My little one, be attentive, for God our Father is allowing Satan to tempt you (LC). The power of your intercession is contained in the purity of your hearts, the purity of your intentions. Trust, and with patient endurance, allow all your disorders to come to the Light. It is only in this way that you can be made pure in the furnace of God's love. I need you to be my pure intercessors of love before the throne of our Father with me. You are my white army.
Divine Love on earth is victim love
Do you love Me?
To love Me is to allow yourself to be set ablaze with the fire of Divine Love. Love of Me is to suffer as ONE with Me for others solely for Love. I lived the interior crucifixion because I am ONE with the Father. This perfect and pure love for My Father moved Me to offer Myself as His sacrifice of love because His desire for you is My desire for you; thus, Love moved Me to offer up to Love My living sacrifice as ONE with Love.
Divine Love on earth is victim love; any other love is not Divine Love.
A new dawn is coming upon the earth
message to LC
I bring glad tidings to you. The Father has found favor with you (LC). You have listened to My voice bringing you out of the desert into new life. Be diligent, My little ones, be diligent! For the God of heaven and earth will shake the earth. A new dawn is coming upon the earth. You, My holy remnant, if you remain faithful during the time of great darkness, will see the Light of the new dawn rising from the east. Persevere!
Living the interior martyrdom with Jesus has become my life
Living the interior martyrdom with Jesus has become my life. I participate intimately and painfully in my Lord's agony of love for the healing and transformation of others. This interior life is very active, affecting my physical state of being, my emotions, my intellect, my perceptions, my thoughts, my words, and my deeds. Living in the hidden force of God's love in the Eucharist has become my life and joy.
God in His infinite goodness allowed me to live and see the fruit of this hidden martyrdom, the unbinding of a close friend. Words cannot express the wonderment, the awe, and consuming gratitude that I am experiencing.
Today the Holy Spirit brought me to ponder Baruch 4. In these words, I encounter who I am in Jesus crucified during these times of great darkness.
I have taken off the robe of peace and put on the sackcloth of my supplication: I will cry to the Everlasting all my days. Take courage, my children, cry to God, and he will deliver you from the power and hand of the enemy. For I have put my hope in the Everlasting to save you, and joy has come to me from the Holy One, because of the mercy which soon will come to you...
I have become this spiritual mother, one with the Mother of God, through the infinite mercy of Jesus Christ, supplicating for all my children, which I feel has expanded to all of God's children, with tears and perfect hope in Christ's Cross and Resurrection. I am the mother supplicating before the throne of the Father through the interior martyrdom of love as ONE with my Love crucified.
What gratitude for such a beautiful and powerful life!
Prepare to enter the decisive battle
Prepare to enter the decisive battle I have been preparing you for so many years. You are dressed fully in the "armor of God'. You will lead My army of victim souls to wage the war against the principalities of darkness. Be still; be silent; be ready for the battle cry; be recollected, for the hour is coming when the prince of darkness will cover the earth, and then My army of victim souls will be sent out, with Me upon the white horse of righteousness, to conquer the forces of evil. Be prepared!!!
Renew your consecrations today as My victims of pure love in Spirit and in Truth.
Message to LC:
Consecrate yourselves in Spirit and Truth. The Spirit sets ablaze with His fire your oblation. I am the Truth. When you consecrate yourself in Me, you are set free through the power of My Blood. Fire and Blood are what are needed for every consecration to bring forth life. Renew your consecrations today as My victims of pure love in Spirit and in Truth.
(Then the Lord began to place in my heart how we are to consecrate ourselves)
"I renew my consecration today through God's pure victim of love, Mary Most Holy. Through her perfect oblation as one in My perfect sacrifice of love, I present my life to you, Abba, our Father. Receive my life as Christ's pure sacrifice of love for the purification of God's Bride, the Church."
(Then the Lord had me finish the consecration with the words I wrote on the Feast of the Annunciation in 2009.)
My Mother, receive my "fiat," impure and faltering, and make it perfect in you. I consecrate all that I am and all that I have to you, my sweet Mother. I give you my hands that, through the pierced hands of your Son, they may become your instruments of love, reconciliation, peace, and healing. I give you my feet that they remain barefoot, completely detached from everything that is not your most Holy Son; feet that continue to move forward with perfect trust into the deep. I give you my heart, harsh and wretched so that you can replace it with yours. It is only through your Immaculate and suffering Heart that I can love my Beloved the way that He has loved me. I give you my mind, impure as it is, for you to renew through the precious crown of thorns. Provide for me the graces to wear your Son's crown as you did. I give you my eyes that they may see only the goodness of God in everyone; eyes that find the presence of God in everything; eyes that are able to contemplate the beauty of your Son in the Eucharist. I give you my ears so that, through you, I can hear the whisper of the Holy Spirit and recognize the voice of God speaking to me. I give you my mouth that, through you, silence becomes my continuous cry of love to my Beloved, that every word that I speak brings glory and honor to God. Grant me the grace to take full authority over my thoughts and words so that my life, in you, becomes a red rose with the fragrance of purity and humility to the Most Holy Trinity. Amen
(Then the Lord finished by giving this message to LC:)
My little one, believe that God our Father will receive the oblation of your lives today in Spirit and Truth as a living torrent of grace to bless the world. You must believe in the power of your hidden ordinary lives united as ONE to My sacrifice of love as God's hidden force that will renew the face of the earth.
I have entered the decisive battle
I have been living interiorly in deep darkness. I feel a total void within my being; the void of God.
Today in the Blessed Sacrament Jesus came to my soul to help me and explain what I am living. He said I have entered the battle He has been preparing me for. He said I have been dressed in the armor of God, and I have entered the darkness of the world, which is the void of God. I need to live in this darkness with great love, patience, endurance... I need to choose to love, for love pierces the darkness. I will live the temptations of many souls in this darkness: discouragement, anger, depression, lust, sensuality... I need to continue to fast and live very simply, detached from the things of the world as much as possible.
Feast of Christ the King for our LC Community
Receive the crown of glory, the crown of thorns
Receive the crown of glory, the crown of thorns. The King of Kings allows Himself to be crowned with the crown of thorns. I permitted this so that all of humanity would know and see the thorns crowning My human and divine Heart. My interior crucifixion I lived through the thorns of ingratitude, rejection, ridicule, murmurings, lies, disloyalty, unfaithfulness, deception, arrogance, pride in all its disguises.... My Heart is crowned with the darkness of your sin (humanity). This is how I lived My Kingship on earth, and it is how I continue to live My Kingship in the Eucharist, for this is Love. To share in My Kingship on earth is to share in My crown of thorns. As my spouse of My Most Precious Blood, you must receive with greater docility, abandonment, and love My thorns through the darkness in the hearts of our sons and daughters. This is the perfect participation in the life of your Beloved, the life of Love.
Prepare to encounter Justice
Prepare the way. Prepare for what? Prepare to encounter Justice (God). Love (God) is Justice. You have been encountering Mercy, but each soul must prepare to encounter Justice. On that day, will you remain standing, or will you be swept away in His justice? My little one, very few are prepared to encounter Justice. The gaze of Justice will condemn you or embrace you in an instant. Few are prepared to encounter Justice, the gaze of Truth. You, Fr Jordi, and My community of LC are called to help many prepare the way through the Simple Path to Union I have entrusted to you. My hidden martyrs of love are a gift of Divine Mercy to help many be prepared to encounter the gaze of Justice. I desire that you work more diligently to finish the Path, My little one, for the time is short. My hidden victims of love are preparing the way through the power of their blood united to My precious Blood being poured upon many by the mercy of Abba. You, My family, are helping God prepare our people for the encounter with Justice. It will visit you like a thief in the night, and few are prepared. Bring Me, victim souls, for the time of justice is upon you, soon to be knocking at your door. Be attentive to the words I speak to your heart; be obedient. Share them immediately with Father. Respond, My little one, with all the passion of your life. Be pure and holy as I am Holy. Live whom you are as My martyrs of Divine Love preparing the multitudes for the great and terrible day. Prepare the way as the new men and women clothed in the white gown made clean in the Blood of the Lamb. You are My white army being sent out into the world to prepare the way for the encounter with Justice (God).
Crown of glory is the crown of martyrs
The crown of glory is the crown of martyrs. It is reserved for those who enter the King's court. It is for those who enter the interior chamber to dwell with God. Persevere in wearing the crown of many thorns. I am permitting for you to receive the oppression in the hearts of others as one with Me… Suffer those attacks, My little one, with perfect trust and love obtaining graces for the many who are oppressed. This hidden life of suffering the oppression of other souls with Me will obtain for you the crown of glory.
END OF 2013