THE HIDDEN LIFE OF A MOTHER OF THE CROSS
HOLDS THE POWER OF GOD
A Trumpet Call From God Forming His Victim Souls for These Decisive Times.
⁓⁓ 2017 ⁓⁓
The Lord seems to be teaching me more about” la Soledad” as I contemplate Him in the Eucharist. I understand Jesus’ life in the Eucharist as a continuation, a continuous now, of His sacrifice of love on the Cross. He has remained fully present in the Eucharist so that His sacrifice of love is always present in each moment. Jesus was obedient to the Cross. He chose TO REMAIN, in silence, in “la Soledad,” in total pain and anguish, nailed to the Cross. He is God, All-Powerful, All-Mighty. He could have come off the Cross if He had willed it. Still, He didn’t because He chose to love us with all His passion -- to lay down His life for us VOLUNTARILY so that we could become a new creation in the image and likeness of God and live for all eternity in the embrace of the perfect love of the Most Holy Trinity.
Mary is ONE HEART with Jesus. Through Jesus’ sacrifice of love and Mary’s perfect union to His sacrifice of love, the Two Hearts become ONE – Suffer all with Me no longer two but one in My sacrifice of love. Therefore, Mary enters “la Soledad” after Jesus’ Ascension. She is a “living Host” – One with The Living Host; thus, Mary also lives “la Soledad” in perfect union with her Son/Spouse’s Soledad in the Eucharist. This is why Blessed Conchita explains “la Soledad” as a fruit of the mystical incarnation.
“La Soledad” is a state of a soul who chooses TO REMAIN united to Jesus’ agony for souls, as His companion of love, solely for Love.
Mary, with the Holy Spirit, wishes to bring each of us into this perfect union with Jesus; that is why she presented us with two roses – the red (martyrdom) and the white (purity). As we grow in pure suffering, we grow in pure love. Through pure suffering as one with Christ, we are transformed into Christ – into Love. That is why Mary brought the two roses together and made them ONE. They also represent Jesus’ red martyrdom and Mary’s white martyrdom as ONE.
Great triumph accomplished through the hidden force of God
My little one, know that I am pleased with you because you have responded to the cry of My voice. My little one, this is a time of an outpouring of grace for My little mustard seed. You are each being given the grace to be transformed into My living hosts to bless, release from bondage, and set free countless souls. See yourselves as My warriors riding out into the horizon. This holy fleet is the Light of God’s love that has the power to cast into hell the spirits of darkness that are now covering the earth. My triumph will be a great triumph accomplished through the most hidden force of God – the hidden martyrdom of My Sacred Heart and the Immaculate Heart of My Mother. Respond by suffering all with Me in My sacrifice of love. Respond with courage and zeal, believing that God has chosen you to participate in the triumph of My crucified love to save the world. Believe that as My warriors – the hidden anawims of God – you have mounted your horses and have begun to fight the great battle for the salvation of the world. Remain steadfast in living daily what I have taught you. Do not be afraid, for the triumph of My Sacred Heart, through the Immaculate Heart of Mary, is close at hand. Usher in the triumph of our Two Hearts. Trust in the words I speak in your heart and share them with perfect faith and hope in the God who loves you. Go in peace.
To BECOME the Light of Christ is not about doing but about becoming
Although they go forth weeping,
Carrying the seed to be sown,
They shall come back rejoicing,
Carrying their sheaves.
No one, after lighting a lamp, covers it with a vessel or puts it under a bed, but puts it on a stand, that those who enter may see the light. For nothing is hid that shall not be made manifest, nor anything secret that shall not be known and come to light. Take heed then how you hear; for to him who has will more be given, and from him who has not, even what he thinks that he has will be taken away.
The Light of Christ is not only about using the talents and gifts we have received to serve God and bless others; to BECOME the Light of Christ is not about doing but about becoming – BEING ONE WITH THE LIGHT. It is the process of The Path to transformation. Becoming living hosts IS BECOMING the Light of Christ. In this transformation, which the Lord has promised us if we respond, the Light of God moves into the world through us, with us, and in us – no longer two but one in His sacrifice of love.
The Lord is not only telling us that His victim souls are the power of God to pierce the darkness covering the earth, but that ONLY His victim souls, who for love come to the Cross, can be transformed into Jesus Christ – into Love – The new Adams and new Eves.
Path #91, p. 247
New men and new women are required for the New Evangelization. This is why I plead with the thirst of God for victim souls, for it is only My victim souls that abandon themselves completely to Me, who can be made a new creation in the image and likeness of God.
Do you, MOC and MC, have the thirst of our Lord for victim souls in your heart and soul?
The fire of the Holy Spirit is the one who places this thirst of God in our hearts. Only by acquiring this thirst, the deepest clamor of the Heart of our Love crucified for victim souls, can we live our identity and fulfill the mission to bring Him victim souls. Individually and as a community, how are we responding to saturate the thirst of our Lord?
Tenderness in Mercy
I must often remember how in my pride and duplicity, the Lord chose to continue loving me by waiting for me to respond to His many acts of tender love. He suffered and continues to suffer my brokenness, for I have not been fully recreated into Love. He cries for me, hidden and silent before the throne of Abba, but only allows me to see His tender smile, hear His encouraging words of love and support, and feel His caresses.
This is how I must live as His spouse, His victim of love: Hidden in the recesses of my heart, I live crying and suffering the brokenness of the souls God has given me, but to each of them, I gaze with the tender smile of Christ, I caress them with the touch of Christ, and I speak to them words of encouragement, support, and truth.
Cf. Isaiah 53 – “Man of Sorrows”
Interiorly I have been contemplating Jesus’ Eucharistic face. I see Him, as in the scene of The Passion of the Christ when Jesus is sitting alone, crowned with thorns after having been mocked by the soldiers. I seem to enter His silence. In His silence, I can touch His sorrow and pain. His gaze draws me into His SILENT CRY for me and all souls.
Jesus placed in my heart to ponder Isaiah 53. I ponder my Beloved—The Man of Sorrows, “despised and rejected.” He voluntarily receives God’s Will to be “bruised for our transgressions” and “grieved,” He accepts the Will of the Father for love, as one with Love. God promises that He will see the “fruit of the travail of his soul.”
Our Lord, God’s anointed Son, redeemed me as the Man of Sorrows through His pain and grief. He remains on earth in the Eucharist as the Man of Sorrows, fully present in silence. Only in silence can I encounter the Man of Sorrows. Only in the silence of Eucharistic Adoration can I choose to REMAIN with Him as His spouse—to adore, thank, bless, caress, embrace, console and love Him.
The Man of Sorrows is the identity of the Missionaries of the Cross, as the Mother of Sorrows is the identity of the Mothers of the Cross. To become one with the Man of Sorrows, men must be willing to be stripped of all their human glory – prestige, good name, honor, power… They must be willing to live despised and rejected in the eyes of the world. This purification by fire is very difficult for all men, and very few will be willing to undergo it.
Israel pilgrimage, Basilica of the Annunciation
Before the grotto, Jesus spoke and asked me to open the Scriptures. I opened to Galatians 4:8-20. He then said:
You have not been chosen to understand the ways of God but to remain with Me in My anguish for souls. My Little one, you have been chosen to redeem souls with Me by participating in the anguish of My Sacred Heart. Believe that your suffering will produce an abundance of fruit. My little one, I was not received then, and still, few souls have entered the fire of My Sacred Heart after I created the passage through My pierced side for every soul to enter and be consumed in Divine Love.
Gethsemane before the rock at the foot of the altar
Love Crucified has been called to REMAIN with Me as I continue to shed tears for Jerusalem, to remain with Me in My continuous agony for souls, to participate with Me in the salvation of the world, as you choose daily to receive the brokenness of the souls I have placed in your lives and to suffer with Me for them. The time of the great destruction draws near; many souls will be lost, you will hear the wailing of Jerusalem throughout the world. Bring Me victim souls to suffer with Me in order to obtain graces of conversion for many souls who otherwise will be lost. Believe in the power of your hidden lives of suffering with Me.
Holy Sepulcher before the altar and mosaic of 10 & 11th Stations of the Cross, Jesus is stripped and nailed to the Cross:
Words from Mary as the Mother of Sorrows (mourning):
It is a time of mourning, mourning for Jerusalem and the entire world. My Son has not been contemplated hanging on the wood of the Cross; His gaze of love has been ignored; His cry for Jerusalem has been ignored. The blood of the martyrs unites to the Blood of the Lamb of God and cries out to Abba, Father, justice. Soon, and very soon, every eye will be forced to contemplate the Lamb of God crucified for the love of mankind, and they will have to choose to believe or turn away. I desire for the Mothers and Missionaries of the Cross to unite to my mourning through prayers and sacrifices, for many souls will be lost to the fires of Gehenna. Remain with me and pray the Stations of the Cross so that many hearts will be open, will see, and be converted. After this great grace from God will come the final tribulation. God’s little mustard seed has been born upon the earth to prepare souls for these decisive times. Pray also for my shepherds, for their hearts to have become dry and brittle, unable to see the God who gave them life hanging from the Tree of Life. Pray, my little ones, pray, for the justice of God is upon the world. I bless you with my tears of love.
Before the rock in front of the altar in the Church:
I felt one drop at a time of Jesus’ Blood falling into my heart. Jesus explained:
Will you walk the last steps of My agony with Me? I will live a time of great suffering and anguish. Satan’s revenge will take full force upon the world. It will seem as if God has turned His gaze away from us. I must remain in greater prayer to be prepared and not fall into despair.
My Blood was not shed in vain. The darkness of Satan will not prevail over the Love of God.
“Remain here and keep watch with me.” — Mt 26:38
“The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.” — Mt 26:41
Walls of Division
Since returning home from the Holy Land, my heart has been in deep agony as I see a lack of unity amongst people. It’s as if a veil was removed from the eyes of my heart in Jerusalem, and I can see the walls of division everywhere. In the Old City of Jerusalem, Jews, Muslims, Christians & Armenians live side by side together in a small space, walking every day amongst each other. Yet, the four quarters remain that way – walls of division in people’s hearts. As I have returned home, I see the walls of division in families, marriages, communities, and countries. I have entered a deep self-examination: How do I also live in this division, separation, among the souls the Lord has given me?
How do my reactions from my wounds contribute to this state of division? How is unity genuinely possible in Christ? Considering the brokenness of humanity, it seems impossible. The Holy Spirit is the Spirit of unity. He is the Divine Person that unites all to Christ and, through Christ, into the Trinity. If I live in the Spirit, possessed by the Spirit of God, how can I, too, become an instrument of unity?
The “yoke” as the Cross of Christ
They that HOPE IN THE LORD will renew their strength; they will soar as with eagle’s wings; they will run and not grow weary, walk and not grow faint.
Take my yoke upon you and learn from me for I am meek and humble of heart; and you will find rest for yourselves. For my yoke is easy and my burden light.
I see the “yoke” as the Cross of Christ. Jesus is carrying one side of the Cross, and I am walking next to Him on the other arm of the Cross. My eyes are constantly gazing at His eyes. His meek and humble Heart is my rest, consolation, and strength to continue on the way of the Cross. The weight of the Cross at times feels heavy and burdensome, but through the gaze of Jesus, it becomes light and bearable. His meek and humble Heart is “slow to anger and rich in kindness.” Christ’s tenderness lifts me “as with eagle’s wings” (Is. 40:31) each time I fall or my knees begin to shake with the weight. He lifts the Cross entirely at other times so that I do not feel any weight and burden, and He allows me to frolic underneath Him as a child. But then He gently places the Cross again on my shoulders so that I can enter the gaze of His eyes, and He mine, as we continue walking the path together redeeming souls.
End of 2017