Living Hosts, One with The Victim Intercessor

By contrasting the example from the Old Testament where Moses is frustrated and angry with the Israelite people and the complaining of the Israelites with the manna (Numbers 11), and Jesus’ words in Mathew 11 on taking His yoke upon us and learning from Him, we understand how to live more intimately united with Jesus in His Eucharistic life.

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Living Hosts, One with the Victim Intercessor

8/7/25

In the name of the Father, of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit. Amen. I consecrate this teaching to the Most Holy Trinity. Father, our Abba, Jesus, our beloved Spouse, and the Holy Spirit, our closest Divine Companion through the Immaculate heart of Mary in Union with St. Joseph. Amen.

I'd like to begin by reflecting a little on the Book of Numbers, chapter 11. I was very drawn to this reading this week as I read about the Israelite people. They got so bored, so tired of eating the manna every day, and they started complaining and thinking about Egypt and lemons and melons and cucumbers, meat.

Then, there's Moses.

I see Moses so agitated, so frustrated, so angry with the people, their lack of faith, their lack of gratitude. He says to God,

Did I give birth to them, that you should say to me, ‘Carry them in your bosom, as a nurse carries a sucking child, to the land that you promised on oath to their ancestors’?

I am not able to carry all these people alone. The burden is too heavy for me. –Numbers 11:12.

Well, I really pondered Moses, and I think all of us can relate to Moses because we've all had the experience of feeling overwhelmed with the cross that we are each called to carry. Moses had the mission of shepherding, I think, over 600,000 people, imagine. But I really thought about each of us and about victim souls because Moses foreshadows Jesus, the victim that carries all of us into the bosom of the Father to heaven, the holy, holy land. And I thought about how we've been formed by the Lord as victim souls. We are called as victim souls to carry all the souls that are difficult, like Moses did, all those broken, and the sins of the people. We are called to receive the sins, the brokenness, the oppressions of the people that God has given us.

We, too, at times, can feel overwhelmed, agitated, frustrated, and tired. And want to say, “I don't want to do this anymore.”

In 2010, the Lord said, “See the oppression in darkness in your family as the same darkness in the world and in My church. This darkness also oppresses My Heart, and I continue to suffer.” This was a very important sentence that the Lord spoke to us because He's uniting the oppression in each of our families to the church, and He has formed us to receive the oppression of the people we live with or work with and live it in Jesus, so that it is multiplied to bring grace to release the oppressed all over the world.

Come to Me

And I thought of Moses a lot. I'm going to continue to speak about him. But I'm going to move now to Matthew chapter 11 because as I pondered Moses and I pondered the Israelite people, the Holy Spirit placed in my memory the scripture where the Lord speaks about His yoke and says to us,

Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me; for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light. –Mathew 11:28-30.

The first thing the Lord tells us is “Come to me.”

The Lord has been drawing us to His presence, His Eucharistic presence, from the beginning. Our community is centered in the Eucharist, our whole formation, which the Lord has given us, is for our transformation into living Host, one with Him. More and more, as we've been walking this Path for all these years, He's been drawing us deeper and deeper into His Eucharistic life.

“Come to me.” Are we coming to Him more and more? Are we coming to him continuously? He promises us that He will give us rest. Do we go to Him to sit at His feet to find rest in Him?

Then he says, “Take My yoke upon you.”

Well, I spent a great deal of time meditating on these few words, “Take my yoke upon you.” The Lord is inviting us to take His yoke, His cross. This is an invitation. These few words from the Lord are an entire lesson on how we're called to carry our cross and follow him.

“Take my yoke upon you.” I am never called to carry my cross by myself. Here is what I discovered that I think went wrong with Moses and with each of us. When we get overwhelmed, we, in our broken humanity, begin to live our cross as if we have to carry our cross alone, as if it's up to us to carry this burden of the brokenness of our own brokenness and all the people God's given us.

Moses seemed to forget that God was speaking to him constantly, that every time he went to God, God resolved the problem. God provided for them in their entire journey through the desert. It seems that Moses took the burden upon himself, and that is where he gets overwhelmed. How often has this happened to us as victim souls? My brothers and sisters, whenever we begin to feel overwhelmed with our burden, it's a sign that God is giving us. We are trying to control and figure it all out, and that is not how we carry the cross. When we are yoked to Christ, it means that He is carrying one arm of the cross, and we're carrying the other. It's a journey with Jesus. It's a partnership in His mission. We have been asked by the Lord to be victim intercessors with Him, co-redeemers with Mary, as one with Christ. He guides.

I started to meditate on Simon carrying the cross with Jesus. Simon did not want to carry that cross; he was forced by the guards to help Jesus carry the cross. That's just like every single one of us. When Jesus gives us a cross, we don't necessarily want to carry it. We don't embrace it right away. We don't even recognize it right away. Our human tendency is to get rid of it. But what happens to Simon as he's yoked to Christ? Simon begins to gaze at Jesus. The transformation in Simon happened because he was carrying the cross next to Jesus as his partner. The guards could have said, He's too tired, we don't think He's going to make it, and have Simon carry the cross while Jesus walks behind him. If that had been the case (God would've never permitted it), Simon wouldn't have had a transformation.

Jesus next tells them, “Learn from Me.”

What was Simon learning as he carried the cross—at first reluctantly—next to Jesus? Most of the time, Jesus was silent, but Simon watched; he gazed at Jesus continuously. He saw Jesus receive the hatred, the brutality, the beatings, the humiliation, the spit, the slaps. He witnessed the pride, the hardness of heart, of the Pharisees and scribes, and he gazed at Jesus’ calm, dignity. He gazed into the eyes of Jesus and saw tenderness and mercy. He must have been overwhelmed to see a man not reacting with hatred, anger, or resentment, and there was one more thing that Simon learned from Jesus. Simon heard the groans, the deepest groans of Jesus. Simon, because he was so close to Him, gazing at him, he heard the groans from His sacred heart, and in this journey, in this partnership, yoked to Christ to his cross, Simon receives the transformation of his heart. My brothers and sisters, it is the same with us.

The Lord, in 2013, called us to perfect trust and love,

The crown of glory is the crown of martyrs… Persevere in wearing the crown of many thorns. I am permitting you to receive the oppression in the hearts of others as one with Me… Suffer those attacks, My little one, with perfect trust and love, obtaining graces for the many who are oppressed. This hidden life of suffering the oppression of other souls with Me will obtain for you the crown of glory. 12/26/13

How can I receive the oppressions of people I love dearly and live the fatigue that that oppression causes my physical body without constantly gazing at my Lord in the Eucharist? It is impossible. That is why, my brothers and sisters, it is impossible for any of us to be transformed into Mothers and Missionaries of the Cross, victims of love, one with Jesus in His eucharistic life, without a profound life of silence and prayer before the tabernacle, before Jesus in the Eucharist. It must become more and more our life.

It is significant that Moses says to God, “Am I to carry all these people in my bosom as a nurse carries a sucking child?” The answer is yes, united with God.

He will feed his flock like a shepherd, he will gather the lambs in his arms, he will carry them in his bosom. –Isaiah 40:11.

My community, as we enter deeper into the eucharistic life of Jesus, I'm discovering from our Blessed Mother that I am not called to carry the burden of all the souls God has given me on my back; I am called to carry the burden as a mother and each of you as a father, as you carry your child. The Pieta is significant, crucial, for our formation as victim souls.

As I took five granddaughters today to an indoor playground, since it's so hot in Miami, and spent three hours so they could play there, I was called to open my silence book and go again to the message of March 9th, 2023. I have to say that's probably one of my favorite messages of all that God's given us. It speaks so much about how Mary lives the Pieta and how much our Lord taught us. In this message, Mary tells us that she received the first nail, the second nail, and the third nail as one with her son. After she receives the piercing of the sword in her immaculate heart and has been mystically crucified with Christ, she then receives all. Her heart is ready to love with the Trinity and to embrace all of us, all of humanity, as her children. And then she says,

I then received the sin and brokenness of each of the Apostles into my Motherly Heart as one with God and embraced them in the embrace of the Trinity.

Remember, these were all the men who betrayed, abandoned, and denied her son. Yet she embraces them into the embrace of the Trinity. She goes on to say,

I continued the life of my Son on earth after His Ascension. I continued living the interior crucifixion as one with Christ, thus living as His living host, one in His Eucharistic life, as grace for the nascent Church.

This, my little one, is where I am now taking each of you (LC): to be one body, one blood, one sacrifice, one victim with my Son as one with me. 3/9/23.

I have found myself now before the Eucharist, embracing each of the souls that God has given me, the ones I suffer the most for, into my bosom, into my heart with Mary as she—The Pieta—embraces her son from the cross. When Mary embraces into her breast, as she taught us, her breast gives life to her son, her crucified son. That broken body of Jesus Christ represents all of us. All broken humanity is given life. That is how I, and each of you, are called to be victim souls, to carry our cross.

Jesus was carrying the wood, the weight, but He was receiving the sin, the hatred, the evil, the disorder into His heart. That is how we are yoked to Christ; that is how we carry our cross. And I found myself all day today, kissing the head of Jesus against my chest and, as I kissed his head, it was the head of all the men and women in my territory of souls. All the broken souls, all the oppressed souls. I was kissing each of them in Christ.

My daughter, you must choose to love always. In your family, love through your silence, love through your gentleness, love in kindness, love in patience, persevere in love. 11/29/10

“My yoke is easy, my burden light”

He guides; He makes the work lighter & easier, never allowing the weight of the cross to crush us as He bears the greatest weight.

The Eucharist, the Bread of Life. 

In the Mass, after Numbers 11:4-15, Matthew 14 is read, the feeding of the five thousand (Five loaves and two fish).

In John chapter 6:27, the Lord says, “Do not labor for the food which perishes, but for the food which endures to eternal life, which the Son of Man will give to you.” Then, in verse 35, He says, “I am the bread of life.”

I pondered on the Israelites receiving the manna, and I learned something new in my heart. I thought to myself, they were receiving these, like wafers from heaven, and that food had all the nourishment they needed, all the nutrients. God was providing all the nutrients through that food; they didn't need anything else. They didn't need melons; they didn't need cucumbers; they didn't need meat or fish. The manna had everything. They knew that that bread was falling from heaven, from the heart of God himself. What happened? They forgot. They did not ponder daily the grace from heaven. Their human nature, their passions of the flesh, took over.

Then I had to have a hard look at myself. As I gazed at the Lord, more than the manna, I have, and you have, the bread of life, the body, blood, soul, and divinity of Jesus Christ! With that nourishment, I don't need anything else. With my daily bread is every grace that I need to carry my cross with Christ. In that bread of life is the strength I need. It's the graces. It's all the virtues I need. It's the wisdom. And then I had to repent because I have not lived my life—my community—every day, in a conscious realization that God is feeding me. He has given saints, like Alejandrina of Balazar and others, the grace to live only on the bread of life. Why? Because He is reminding us that that's really all we need. But just like the Israelites, the passions of our human nature desire many times earthly food more than the heavenly food of God himself.

We need to repent, not just me, all of us. I have been every day going to Mass, receiving the bread of life in a new way—a new way! Every day, all day long, I think that I've been nourished. As I have lunch, I thank you, Jesus, for this earthly food, but thank you more for the Bread of Life I had this morning. Now it's a constant gratitude. God is feeding me greater than the manna. Thank you. If the Israelite people had lived in a daily consciousness of what they were eating with gratitude, they would've never fallen into the sin of indifference or ingratitude. The same has happened in our church. There is an indifference and ingratitude, even in those of us who receive the Bread of Life daily, beginning with me. We are being transformed into living hosts, my community, which we are. This realization, this gift is from the Holy Spirit to me and to you because He's wanting us as living hosts, like Mary, to live as one with the Bread of Life. Receiving everything from Him, gazing at Him, thanking Him.

This sorrow of your heart becomes My daily food of your love for me.

My little one, to be My living host, requires that you persevere, suffering the intense sorrow of your heart as one with Me and Mary. This sorrow of your heart becomes My daily food of your love for Me. This daily bread is My delight and consolation amid an ocean of grief. 7/19/25

I will end with two things. First, the last message the Lord gave me on August 1st, 2025.

You live in Me and for Me

My little one, I am making all things new through the few, past, present, and future, who become one with Me in My Eucharistic life. The grace you are receiving, along with all My little mustard seed, is the grace of transformation into My living hosts. You live in Me and for Me.

Let me stop there a minute. That short little sentence has been a continuous echo of the Lord's words constantly in my heart. You live, Lourdes, in me and for me. It's been a guiding light daily for me. Now, the next four sentences I'm going to read to you are how we live with Mary and her cloister in Jesus's Eucharistic life. The Lord says:

You live to accompany Me in My continuous groans;

You participate with Me in My sorrows of Heart;

You live gazing at Me and thanking Me with hearts overflowing in gratitude;

You cry tears of love for Me, your beloved Spouse.

These four sentences are how we live in Jesus's eucharistic life. You live accompanying Me in My groans, my community. The Lord began to tell us years ago, I think the first time was in 2011: “Listen to my groans.” It seems so simple; something you can listen and and hear and forget, but it's a lifetime of transformation to hear those groans. It's a lifetime of purification to hear them continuously. It's a profound entering into a profound interior silence. I am in a noisy playground with a bunch of children playing. As I sat by myself, watching all those children, interiorly I was totally silent. Interiorly, I was listening to the groans of my beloved and praying for all the souls He's given me, groaning with Him for them. Interiorly, I was seeing the tears of my beloved and was crying interiorly with Him. I was doing this work in a noisy playground as I was constantly looking and checking on my five granddaughters. This is life in Jesus.

Then the Lord goes on to say:

These few souls are given by the Father the power of God to defeat Satan.

The few that become living hosts. What is the power we're receiving? It's the power of the Eucharist. Jesus in the Eucharist is divine Power, is the power of God. And when we are transformed in Him, we are given, we share in the power of God to defeat evil, to set the captives free, to liberate the oppressed, but we have to be willing to wait because that's also what the Lord does in the Eucharist and Abba Father: The long wait. The Lord goes on to say,

Believe, My daughter, believe, and proclaim what I say and what I am accomplishing in you, for those that have the humility to listen and follow will become My great saints of the end times, ushering in the new era of peace into the world. Believe and trust that I am making all things new. (He starts with that sentence and ends with it.) Give me all glory and honor continuously. Go in peace.

Dreimi’s meditation on living the Eucharistic life

I will end this reflection with the best of the best: Dreimi’s meditation, which she began after the Saturday Mothers of the Cross cenacle, where I told the Mothers that, in my retreat, the Lord asked me, as I was gazing at Him in the Eucharist, “What do you see?” Dreimi took that question to heart, and this is her meditation on how she is learning to live Jesus's Eucharistic life:

Since last Saturday, after the cenacle, I began to contemplate the Eucharist, and the question arose strongly within me.

Unlike when the Lord asked our mother Lourdes, “What do you see?” as she shared with us, this time it was not He who asked me directly. It was in the silence that I began to ask myself that question: “What do I see when I contemplate you, Jesus?” 

Thus began this inner dialogue that unfolded like a gift in my heart. I had no concrete answer, but the question lingered within me like a flame. It was not until today, Tuesday, at the end of adoration, that my heart began to see clearly, as if veils were slowly being removed. I began to experience inner images so vivid that they went beyond what my eyes could see in the monstrance.

What do I see in the Eucharist?

–I see God becoming men descending out of love to the smallest of creatures.

–I see a child who cries, tenderly embracing poverty and human frailty.

–I see Mary waiting silently and offering her fiat, even though she knows that her son will end up on a cross.

–I see Abba listening with a loving heart to His Son, saying, “Forgive them,” as He gives His life.

–I see the pain of redemption.

–A God who does not rush to come down from the cross because He glorifies Himself in suffering for love.

–I see the immensity of creation contained in the humility of a piece of bread.

–I see the swaddling clothes in the manger, the face of Veronica's veil, and His sacred image on the holy shroud.

–I see the living imprint of love made flesh.

–I see the God who wanted to let Himself be found in what is small, in what is hidden, in what does not shine.

–I see a redeeming arm that touches the soul and heals the wounds.

–I see the living water springing from His side, quenching the deep thirst of hearts.

I lack nothing because I see Him and, in His gaze, I find my home.

–I see suffering, love, love crucified, and, like flashes in the midst of darkness, very few and small lights scattered throughout the world.

And then I knew… those lights are his little mustard seed, the one who suffers and comforts, the one who loves and waits, the one who walks and accompanies the hidden love, the God who is not loved.

Message of the Simple Path[1].

Jesus has taught me to see with the eyes of the soul; to enter into the silence of the heart, to see with Him on this hidden and small path, the soul is transformed, not by what it understands, but by what it contemplates from the Cross.

“My little one, remain with me in the silence of the Cross. Allow me to reveal to you the secrets of My Love hidden in the Eucharist.”

This is the Simple Path: to see, listen, and respond from the heart. To believe without understanding, to love without expectations, to suffer without resistance.

Thank you. God bless you, my community.

[1] The Simple Path to Union with God. This book portrays the path that the Lord has taught Love Crucified Community.